[Pony]

OH wow, yes, I can relate to some of what you are going through. I have family genetics against me, but my well meaning family would always remind me that If I wanted to be pretty I had to not eat so much and so on. I can remember sneaking food at a very early age because I didn't want anyone one to know that I just wanted to taste something good...like sweets and ding dong's or even ice cream, which was always around.

Then when I gained weight going into my pre-teen and teen yrs. I always heard, "Oh, you would be so pretty if you would just lose the weight" and " See if you really wanted, you could look like her" as they pointed out some skinny chick or model on TV. I even heard that one as recent as a few yrs. back from the man from my last relationship, as he pointed out this waitress at our favorite Mexican Resturant.

Yes, I have been accusom to sneaking food even in my adult yrs. as well. But recently I have changed my eating habits.....for me, not them. I think that is the difference. I am not trying to please anyone else, so I don't care what they say too much anymore. So I don't feel I have to hide. If I want to eat something, I go ahead and eat it. I only have to answer to myself. But since I have been so much effort into my getting healtier, by losing weight and exercising, I don't want to mess it up.