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Well sharon, my favrite belle
The teachers and authority figures use to say i let things in one ear and
out the other. Ya see, i knew i had it right all along.
Even here on SR there's an ignore button.
We get to practice..lol
it's true have of my recovery is base on washing out my mind.
The stuff that works for others, but would totally drive me insane
or kill me.
Some people might think AA or recovey is a cult or some off the wall program.
Ah...how can it be..if I'm set free ?
it's call not being under the influnence..first with the drugs and alcohol
than with my oldways of thinking. it's a pain in the arss sometimes becuase
some people's new was my old way...good lord i feel old.
oki doki short form...F-it..is the short form serenity prayer.
it works for me in the heat of the moment becuase when there's endorphans
firing in my brain..The last damn thing I wanna do or remember to do is... pray.
Becuase stress is from wanting to choke the live crap out of some sob
that really deserves it...lmao
You can call it time out, grace, letting go or droping it.
I'm wise enough or was granted the wisdom to change the things that I can..
Me...
if i learned accpetence of life's on life's term...and sometimes it tottally
sucks. Surely i can allow myself to accept unconditional love from a HP.
Right, wrong, wierd, i don't worry or mind...God brings me peace without
a hangover. Why am i like this ?
mmm it's call being above the influnece of people , places and things.lol
i might even be consider a clear by some people.
Another simple analogy is
If I'm holding on to something (anger or resenments).
My hands are full...how can I recieved love or peace ?
I have to drop it so my hands are open and free.
One door close and another one open.
Sometimes i trip between the two doors in the hall way.
I struggle and sometimes go out of my mind. Sometimes i get into a total dispair.
Ultimately i stop kicking , fighting and surrender...actaully i just get sick and tire.
I become very, very,very still. Then something GRAND happens.
All i have to do is allow myself to accept it...I'm good enough.
I do not need to earn true love. it's my herritage.
I'm a child of god
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