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komikanu · 10-20-2003, 03:53 PM

what to do when you are depressed, uninsured, afraid of meds, and completely broke. i see a lot of people here say talk to your doctor. i don't have one, can't afford one. haven't had a physical in 3 years (when i lost job) and scared to, considering how much i smoke and drink, and how i feel general sadness consumes my body. i am weary it is difficult to get help you're poor. i have been to a therapist who i will see this week. i have avoided her for the months because i wanted think i could do it alone, and because i can't stay sober, and am afraid to admit cause i can't afford treatment. things are collapsing so now i'm going, she's cheap and i love her, but i'm afraid i'm beyond her, and her referals are so expensive. i am ashamed to admit i can't overcome heartache. i have made loss a cycle, i expose myself as unstable, mostly fueled by alcohol and drug abuse. then i play the victim, push when i know i am not wanted, and get called crazy and shut out. i know i will always be sad and alone, slowly killing myself with cigarettes and alcohol unless something changes.

10-20-2003, 03:53 PM	#1 (permalink)
komikanu Paused Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: chapel hill, nc Posts: 8	depressed, poor and scared what to do when you are depressed, uninsured, afraid of meds, and completely broke. i see a lot of people here say talk to your doctor. i don't have one, can't afford one. haven't had a physical in 3 years (when i lost job) and scared to, considering how much i smoke and drink, and how i feel general sadness consumes my body. i am weary it is difficult to get help you're poor. i have been to a therapist who i will see this week. i have avoided her for the months because i wanted think i could do it alone, and because i can't stay sober, and am afraid to admit cause i can't afford treatment. things are collapsing so now i'm going, she's cheap and i love her, but i'm afraid i'm beyond her, and her referals are so expensive. i am ashamed to admit i can't overcome heartache. i have made loss a cycle, i expose myself as unstable, mostly fueled by alcohol and drug abuse. then i play the victim, push when i know i am not wanted, and get called crazy and shut out. i know i will always be sad and alone, slowly killing myself with cigarettes and alcohol unless something changes.