[Juls]

Cindy,

You have alot more going on than what I would consider and "addiction" problem, where you are abusing a particular "substance." You are addicted to taking pills, but that is just a symptom of the other things going on with you.

The things you are doing to yourself I think have to do with alot of repressed anger. When we have had things happen to us like what your mother did, and we are unable to express that anger in a healthy fashion, we turn it inwards and can eventually start being self-destructive.

I don't know if your border-line. The term border-line is a term coined by the psychiatric community to describe people that have a similar set of symptoms. This "Terms" are put into a manual known as the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual." They then have a term that they can use for insurance billing services and as a diagnostic tool.

I'm not sure what people who are borderline are on the borderline of. LOL

I'm glad to hear you are no longer cutting yourself.

Come over to our anger thread and post your thoughts, feelings, on anger.

Juls