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**Peter** · 08-06-2007, 08:38 AM

We all make our own rules and I do not know what rules you have for yourself, but if I were to INTENTIONALLY pick up a joint and smoke it or INTENTIONALLY down a glass of wine, then in my heart I would have relapsed.

Why?

Because my disease of addiction resides primarily in my thinking. It is my thinking which led me to believe that I need a mind and mood altering substance in order to feel good about myself.This is a lie I believed for years

Although I may not become completely stoned from a single glass of wine or from a few pulls on a spliff. I will still have relapsed because my THINKING has changed. When my thinking changes from one of complete abstainance then I stop RECOVERING.

I do not play games with my disease. I understand the baffling and complex nature of drugs and the subtle lure of my cravings.

This is the rule I make for myself.

08-06-2007, 08:38 AM	#4 (permalink)
Peter Moderator Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Leaving Sparta Posts: 2,931	We all make our own rules and I do not know what rules you have for yourself, but if I were to INTENTIONALLY pick up a joint and smoke it or INTENTIONALLY down a glass of wine, then in my heart I would have relapsed. Why? Because my disease of addiction resides primarily in my thinking. It is my thinking which led me to believe that I need a mind and mood altering substance in order to feel good about myself.This is a lie I believed for years Although I may not become completely stoned from a single glass of wine or from a few pulls on a spliff. I will still have relapsed because my THINKING has changed. When my thinking changes from one of complete abstainance then I stop RECOVERING. I do not play games with my disease. I understand the baffling and complex nature of drugs and the subtle lure of my cravings. This is the rule I make for myself.