Thanks Steph...good luck with your struggle...glad you going to meetings, I did that for a long time while still drinking, and eventually I got the willingness from God to be willing to give it up altogether. I do not miss it at all - but clearly with this latest temptation, my addictive mind is looking for something else to latch onto! It scares me that while I can be so grateful to God for my recovery I can still want to do such bad things to myself!
I mean drugs ARE bad, and I feel like it's kind of a slap in the face to God. I guess I am just so DONE with alcohol and I KNOW my powerlessness so well, I guess I'm just not that convinced about 'other' substances yet and I need to be vigilant.
Thanks for your reply!! I will let you know how I get on.
Cathy31
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