[Juls]

Cindy,

Do you abuse addictive medications, or medications in general. I think if it's not addictive medications, but pills in general you are not an addict, but suffering from some type of obsessive/compulsive disorder. Or maybe addiction and obsessive/compulsion.

Even one friend, if it's a good friend can be enough. Sometimes I think I don't have many friends, but I do have some so I'm not totally friendless. LOL

I try to see the humor in my situation with my problems and neuroses and things. Sometimes it helps.

I went through a similar thing with my mom. She died of liver failure basically. I took care of her when she was dying, but she had done some horrible things to me.

I have broken the cycle, so that is something to be proud of.

Juls