[ssindi]

I have a full time job and may just a few friends,not many. Depressing, isn't it. My family does not do much with me because I am the black sheep of the family. I would not enable my mother's drinking when she was alive. I did not see her for seven years before her death by liver failure a year ago. The rest of my family is in denial and think I'm the crazy one, I don't know if I'm crazy or not but I could not deny her horrid abuse. I am desperately trying to break the cycle now. It is hard since there are lots of medications that I NEED to take due to my epilepsy. But to survive I must learn not to abuse them and take them as the doctors orders.

You didn't really scare me too much, I'm been though a lot so what if I didn't damage something, I just can't do it anymore. I want to get better but in my miind, that fact is kind of sad.