[DaVinci2]

I suffer from anxiety/panic disorder. However, that has now been replaced by what I think is depression. I still feel anxiety at times, and it's mostly there when things go wrong at home. However, because of all the anxiety and previous panic attacks, I think I've started to suffer from depression as well.

My doctor said that the medicine should help with depression as well as the anxiety and panic attacks. It hasn't helped with the depression...and it only seems to be getting a little bit worse day by day. It's come to the point where I feel that I need to leave my marriage and my life, get on a train, and just keep going until it stops at the end of the tracks, get on another train and keep going until there's nowhere left to go but back.

I love my wife too much to do that. Much of the passion in our life is gone though (Due to the stress her mother causes her...and then me). There's no one else to help, no senior homes (That we could find to this point) where we can put her. I feel like our life is on hold and the longer it gets left on hold the harder it will be to get things back to where they used to be. I don't want to end up living a life of depression because of a mother-in-law that has decided to be a lazy person who expects everything to be done for her without putting any effort into her own life.

Leaving my wife is out of the question. I will work until I die of a heart attack/stroke or go crazy trying to make it work. We're trying to see what social services are available that will take care of my mother-in-law. Other than that, I don't know what to do, so any advice would be greatly appreciated. I do stretches and breathing exercises to help with how I feel physically at times, which can help my depression, but only a bit, not to the point where I can sleep well or anything. So any further advice would be much appreciated.