[ssindi]

You posted to my message in the NA forum. Thanks for doing that. I did abuse my paxil, I seem to abuse weird things nobody else usually gets addicted to. Mostly I just think I want to feel better, I have felt this way ever since I first acquired epilepsy when I was 30. Terribly depressing. I tried to kill myself about three times during then.

Anyway back to paxil. doc now has me on 50 mg of Paxil CR but paxil seemed to give me more energy so it was right in my purse and I took a few more and few more and a few more. I will not do that anymore. You have my word, whatever it is worth.

I really thought I had things under control but I didn't. It''s been five days now I have been taking my normal dosage, I'm sure I can continue but I think I need to attend a NA meeting, I need some support. My husband is not supportive at all and refuses to try to understand my seizures or my addiction. He is embarrassed. See I was supposed to be a perfect wife and now I'm not all that perfect. He thinks he is perfect and I should believe everything he says. well, he doesn't know much about recovery and I accept that, his mind is closed. I have to get support elsewhere. I guess I haven't been too proud of a lot of the things I've done but going through rehab I now I can still relapse and return. Right?????

I was having 2 beers some nights too and I have stopped that also.

What kind of damage could I have done to my brian from overdosing?