[DaVinci2]

Today I did my first wedding ceremony. It was a stressful situation but fun. For the first time I worked, but it didn't feel like work, I enjoyed what I was doing. I married a nice couple in front of about 50 people.

Last night though (The day before the wedding) my wife and mother-in-law were at it again. I couldn't handle it, I couldn't do anything for myself without making things worse, so I went shopping and took my time doing. Unfortunately, the whole time I kept thinking about the situation and how I'd like to just put my fist through the wall to 'make a point' or something.

Instead, I came home and just went to sleep. Unfortunately, too early. I woke up at around 2am and couldn't get back to sleep until about 5am...and I had to be up at 7am to start getting ready.

The whole time up until the ceremony I was a bit on edge. The ceremony itself was what took my mind off of everything. On my way home I was hungry and tired. As soon as I ate lunch I fell asleep. When I woke up, which was about 40 minutes ago, I felt depressed...kind of. I took my meds like I always do, but it's as though the sleep itself knocked the meds out of my system or something. Slowly I'm feeling a bit better but still not close to 100 percent. I don't know what to do right now except write this post. My wife is at work and my mother-in-law has just finished dinner and is in her room watching TV. My wife will be home at 9.30pm...or in about 2 hours.

I sent an email asking her to 'come home happy.' I hope she does, because I really need her to understand the importance of her happiness to me and how it affects me. I've made sure that everything that her mother could possibly do wrong she WON'T...now I'm just hoping for the best.