| I just don't understand
Ok, well I know that I shouldn't want to be with my ex-abf, but I find myself wanting to be near him. I miss him. I regret turning off his phone. I feel really bad about doing that. Part of me wants to turn it back on, but I know that that will not solve all of the problems. It will not make him love me, it will not make him apologize for the pain he has caused me. I want him to get better. I want him to stay sober. I do not wish any pain on him. I just wish I could hear him say that he was sorry and that he did really love me, that cheating on me was not my fault, it was just stupid.
I feel really depressed about this entire situation. How do I get over wanting to be near him? How do I convince myself that if he really did love me, he wouldn't have done any of this to me? It just isn't sticking in my head!!!
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