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Hi,
I am new to this forum.
I have posted in a couple of places saying 'hi'
I am 36 yr old and diagnosed as having bi polar. I have major probs accepting the diagnoses (is this normal?) and for the majority of the time kid myself on the shrink is wrong (please tell me if anyone finds this term derogatory)
I do not have major extremes. My 'highs' consist of elevated confidence, agreeing to do things I wouldn't normally, overspending (not into thousands....), undertaking of academic courses that I give up shortly after, hmm....increased libido (TMI!)..... and over drinking. Aprt from the drinking, I enjoy these times.
My stable times, I am like anyone else. I have fluctuations of mood but not extreme and I live a fairly normal and happy life.
My lows are for the better part, just an increased term of sadness and despondency. However, I do have times where I don't want to die, but I carry out behavoiurs that could result in this. I usually just want to be 'out of life' but not dead. Get me? I sometimes over drink in these times too.
I am on citalopram 60mg (I hate it, I think it does nothing for me but when I came off them I had a hard time) and seroquel (shrink is very blaise about the dose...50 mg nightly...or 100 if I want..take them during the day if I want....don't if I dont!) he is a touch eccentric! They help me but their effectiveness is waning (is this normal?) He is however wanting me to take lithium, which I have so far refused. I am geting rather paranoid (normal???) and think he is trying to push me to crises point as this is the only time I agree to med changes.
Hope to get to know you all better in time
Hippy
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