Hi, thanks for responding!
I also exhibit OCD symptoms in ways that aren't as obvious or publicly visible; I think that's why it has taken so long for me to realize that some of the things I "just do" aren't things that other people would think of doing. And, like you, the obsessions are much stronger than the compulsions.
It's sometimes really hard to find support with this, because my particular expression of OCD is so "middle of the road". I don't have rituals that obviously interfere with my life, it's much more subtle, and often looks like plain anxiety.
I get a lot of "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" responses from people, even friends in recovery, when I don't feel able to go out into public places due to OCD and anxiety--which is extremely annoying, because I have to double up on my attempts at self-acceptance when I have people essentially telling me that if I would just put more effort into it, it would magically disappear (obviously, if I knew the secret formula for that, I would've already done it).
Anyway, I am venting...thanks for your responses, hopefully there may be others on this site who can share and identify
