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Grizzled · 07-20-2007, 10:09 PM

As I'm sure many of you have heard in meetings (I know I have) we alcoholics have gotten ourselves into our predicaments because, for some strange reason, we think we are in some semblance of control in our addiction. Thinking back on the logistcs of my 'supply management' I feel I'm qualified to be the executive in charge of supply chain management of Wall-Mart.

I still find it hard to reconcile all the 'responsibilities', mistaken cares, and phantom crises I had to manage to protect my present and future assurance that I would always be able to have a drink (or twelve) when I wanted and where I wanted.

What a joke.

My best thinking made me sick and insane. It was a very pleasant minor (perhaps major) miracle to tackle this step and see the anxiety and fears slowly disappear. As previously stated, it is a DECISION to rid ourselves of unfounded and imagined notions of reality. But I have to live this step every day and reaffirm my faith in God and know that His will will be done and mine is inconsequential.

I have gained a feeling of quiet relief in knowing I am just a cog in the larger machinery of humanity. It takes the pressure off. It is the will of God.

07-20-2007, 10:09 PM	#26 (permalink)
Grizzled Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: New Hanover, PA Posts: 74	As I'm sure many of you have heard in meetings (I know I have) we alcoholics have gotten ourselves into our predicaments because, for some strange reason, we think we are in some semblance of control in our addiction. Thinking back on the logistcs of my 'supply management' I feel I'm qualified to be the executive in charge of supply chain management of Wall-Mart. I still find it hard to reconcile all the 'responsibilities', mistaken cares, and phantom crises I had to manage to protect my present and future assurance that I would always be able to have a drink (or twelve) when I wanted and where I wanted. What a joke. My best thinking made me sick and insane. It was a very pleasant minor (perhaps major) miracle to tackle this step and see the anxiety and fears slowly disappear. As previously stated, it is a DECISION to rid ourselves of unfounded and imagined notions of reality. But I have to live this step every day and reaffirm my faith in God and know that His will will be done and mine is inconsequential. I have gained a feeling of quiet relief in knowing I am just a cog in the larger machinery of humanity. It takes the pressure off. It is the will of God. __________________ Recovery Date: October 5, 2006.