[VioletAntigone]

I would love to hear from anyone who has, or thinks they have, OCD.
Since becoming clean/sober a little over two years ago, my diagnosis has shifted from generalized anxiety disorder to OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), and it seems to fit the bill pretty tightly.

The more I talk to my psychiatrist and therapist, and the more I think about it, I realize I have been acting on OCD impulses since early childhood and not realizing it until now.

As with anything else, drugs and alcohol created a cushioned barrier between myself and any feelings that I couldn't deal with--and now, without that cushion, I'm left with the obsessive/compulsive disorder, which I firmly believe serves essentially the same purpose of the drugs (if I'm bombarded with obsessive thoughts, no matter how inane or ridiculous or unpleasant, then I don't have to focus on my true feelings).

I've looked around at another forum specifically for OCD sufferers, but unfortunately not everyone with OCD has the added benefit and insight of recovery to help guide the way (I am extremely grateful for my exposure to recovery and twelve step programs, because it allows me to recognize that obsessions and compulsions are basically attempts to focus on something other than the festering pain I've been trying to ignore most of my life).
Unfortunately, the general consensus with OCD is that it is some kind of unchangeable brain chemistry malfunction, which I don't believe.
I apologize for the lengthy post, but if anyone here has any experience with this (or even just a basic interest), I would love to hear from you!