Sounds like severe anxiety to me, kelliegirl. We cannot diagnose or offer suggestions here on SR because we are NOT medical doctors, except to recommend professional help. I am so glad you are seeking a therapist. Please do ASAP as she or he can help you sort out some of this stuff and also provide lots of ways of dealing with anxiety. The best way I have found to find a GOOD therapist is to ask close, trusted friends in whom I can confide.
Best to you, kelliegirl. Keep reading and posting, k? You are definitely not alone.
