[Loreena]

Hi,

Without going into a long story, I wanted to share that I have been in recover now for 20 years and am SO grateful for not ever having the desire to drink since I put
it down years ago. What I just wanted to share is that even though I have not drank, alcohol has destroyed my life again. I am married to an active alcoholic, he wasn't so when I married him, he was in recovery with me. We shared several good years of sobriety together but some 7 years ago now he picked up and my life has been hell all over again. I have been sharing in alanon but since I'm a "double winner" having the disease myself, I feel more comfortable and accepted here. AA saved me but I have so many other issues I never thought I'd need to "deal" with. It is hard reaching out since I have been away from meetings but I am back and it is helping ALOT. AA has never let me down.

I am divorcing and have to sell my house and take a huge financial hit to my credit and I'm just afraid and feeling alone and down. I know I will be okay, I will be more than okay if I continue to reach out, share and try to help others, getting outside myself is the best thing I can do. There are so many others out there with way more problems than I have and I don't want folks to think I'm pulling a boo hoo here, just maybe needed someone to identify with my plight or just to say hi.

I wish everyone here sobriety - a day at a time, this disease will hurt and destroy lives, I have allowed this to happen again and again, heck I left him once and took him back, shows you how much I have to learn still. it is a life long process, I am severely humbled by my current situation but I know God will get me through it and I know and want everyone else to know that the only one in the world we can get and keep sober is ourselves and we can all do it and have good lives. Diligence my friends!

For those who are still struggling with this disease, remember, you don't only hurt yourselves - you destroy those who love you - I did and it took years to get all the trust and respect of family and friends back but it can be done but only if you stay sober and ask for help and go to meeting!! If you are reading this, thank you and thanks so much for having this forum for me to share in.

Good luck to everyone here,

L