[Bozo]

I still play out scenes in my head with worst case scenario endings. The weird thing is when I have a thought like that, the end result is supposed to be me dealing with some kind of unbearable pain.

There is prolly a reason why I think something disastrous is bound to happen to me at some point. Could be I have lived my life as a victim or a people pleaser.

Could me Im just mentally effed up from bad blood coursing my veins or as Deb said, and over active imagination.

I think the writing idea is great. I wrote many of horror stories as early as third grade, my parents thought they were very creative and good.

Looking back though, when I have these intrusive(self damaging thoughts), I just ignore them and try to stay focused on positive stuff.