[sidney37]

Apparently I am taking a slow journey, and after 3 years, I continue to struggle! My husband is very supportive, however, it is hard for him after 17 years of sobriety, to watch me hurt myself over and over. Maybe on some subconscious level I am scared to death to live completely sober, without my pot. I have been very sick for several months and after a couple of months of hanging out with myself, I was completely insane, so once again I used. I barely have 2 weeks. My addict side tells me pot is no big deal I have been sober from some other, in my opinion, much worse things. And I am having no problem with the other substances, but the pot, it has become my best friend after 30 years of being a daily smoker. I am struggling so bad with this drug. My sponsor suggested I find an on-line forum since I can't get to a face to face since my sickness, anyway, enough of that, I am really glad you all are here, thank you.