Thanks Tom....I went to my club house meeting at
noon today...not because i had a craving but because
i wanted to go....Besides i had not been to an AA function
like a bbq since i got sober 16 yrs ago....
The room was filled for the meeting while there was volleyball
and bbq going on outside...
I always get something out of the meetings i go to...like listening
to speakers who sound so elequant and profound....they sure
do know how to talk the talk of recovery...
After the meeting as i was walking around outside and visiting
others....i let my buddy do all the talking whom lots of people
know her....she has 20 something yrs sobriety....anyway...we stopped
and talk to a lady sitting on a bench and i told her i enjoyed
what she shared...as i listened to the lady...she talked
about when she came into AA baclk in 70 something and now only
has 8 mos....i think....i was stunned to hear that....my goodness...
and even tho this lady is older than I she had been in AA for awhile
now and is no stranger to recovery....then she let it go....she also
talked about how hard it was getting back into the program...but
she made it back....WHEW....
See ...when i hear people talk like that who had long term sobriety go
back out....scares me to death,,,,
Why i ask....yet i do know why....but why....we know
what to do and yet boom it happens....
Sooooo CUNNING BAFFLING AND POWERFUL is our disease.
So when i say i have 16 yrs sober...its not by sitting
on my tush for that long....im like everyone else in
these rooms...im not all that special or cured ..just one
drink away from a drunk if i ever stop working my program.....
So ...ive learned and accepted who and what I am and i know
what it is that i need to do on a daily bases to stay sober
one day at a time....
For one hour of the day make a meeting cause I want to
go and share my ESH with others....do service work ...hey
im happier today than any day i was drinking....
Glad to be here and thanks for letting me share.
Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
By the grace of my HP and people like
you here in SR i havent had a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.
For that and you I am truely grateful.