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surrender and acceptance. i went kickin and screamin all the way. i put myself through 3 years of pure torture loving him so much it almost killed me.
it was so hard to stand and look at this man that i loved, and knew he had a beating heart, that he had a brillant mind, that he wanted love.......and to know that he was so lost into his addictions that he was impossible for me to live with him.
his addictions had turned him into someone who really didn't care about anything except the next drinking binge. he paid a high price for his drinking career....loss of family, wife, home, career, self-respect and self-love.
it was so very difficult for me to turn loose of him and save myself. and as i became more educated about the addiction, it became more and more pathetic to see his ploys and scheming and scamming. it just broke my heart for him, too.
just hang in there, and keep the focus on yourself. the addiction is tricky and the trickster hooks are slinging all around.
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