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Rain,
I'll second lotustea's good advice. Don't try to deal with this all by yourself. You'll get a lot of comfort from talking about it with someone who is trained to help.
Disappointment in love is something that everyone experiences. I suspect that the boyfriend situation is only a part of the sadness, etc. that you are feeling. Anorexia is all about control. A good counselor can help you to understand your feelings and why you have them.
You can't control another's feelings (God knows I tried) but there is good news. You are young and there are MANY people out there who could be your friend, soul-mate, lover, etc. At this time in your life things feel like they are final and forever but I can tell you frankly they are not. A warm day with plenty of sunshine is just around the corner. But do reach out of help -- you'll be really glad you did.
Best,
Buzz
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