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I've just got back from seeing my addiction specialsit. And we talk about how cravings are something addicts will have to deal with in form or anothr for a long time. His idea to have me embrace my desires by cycling through all the possitives that effect me perosonaly. Example I dont want to use cause I don't want my daughter to be around it. or I don't want to use becuase by wife will be pissed. My doc is saying turn aroun those same issues so they are not based on a negative and based on accomplishment-Reward-System. Meaning humans typical repsond to better treatment while they are on a rewards system vs not. The mast plan is if you can recognize those possible situations to then think a series of reward thoghts not negative thoughts. So in my babbling way, (before I fall asl33p) I personally believe that shock value and watching people bottom out makes me apprecaite my life that much more. I've have not hit rock bottom to force into recovry the stories I do read scare that crap outta of me. Maybe this is a bit confusing for most be it's about handle your craving in different wasy. Personally I don't think I can do the "its all possitive". The shock value and scare tactics from loosing it do a hella job too. Sorry for the ramble but its late and im probobly making no sense.