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Nitelite · 06-18-2007, 10:32 AM

I just got triggered at work; and the first thing that came to mind was taking a cab, going home and hurting myself.
started to think in all kinds of different directions.

My therapist is going on vacation for the first time in 2 years. I can't do that to him. (a time when co-dependency works for good, and not for evil!!)

I can't find a hospital around here that doesn't advertise ECT in big bold letters, and even if I could find one, If I were strong enough to walk in for a 72-hour hold, I am probably strong enough not to go in at all.

My son who is recovering from addiction is with me and I can't go to a hospital or hurt myself while he is around.

I am out of sick days.

Maybe if I keep writing, this will begin to sort itself out. I do see my T later today. But then what? This sounds so freaking stupid, but I don;t want to upset him/**** him off--you know. I have been doing so much better, and now: WHAMMO.

any words at all would be appreciated.

06-18-2007, 10:32 AM	#1 (permalink)
Nitelite Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Hurricane Alley, Fl Posts: 119	Triggered, lil' help? I just got triggered at work; and the first thing that came to mind was taking a cab, going home and hurting myself. started to think in all kinds of different directions. My therapist is going on vacation for the first time in 2 years. I can't do that to him. (a time when co-dependency works for good, and not for evil!!) I can't find a hospital around here that doesn't advertise ECT in big bold letters, and even if I could find one, If I were strong enough to walk in for a 72-hour hold, I am probably strong enough not to go in at all. My son who is recovering from addiction is with me and I can't go to a hospital or hurt myself while he is around. I am out of sick days. Maybe if I keep writing, this will begin to sort itself out. I do see my T later today. But then what? This sounds so freaking stupid, but I don;t want to upset him/**** him off--you know. I have been doing so much better, and now: WHAMMO. any words at all would be appreciated.