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Can depression and alcholism be "treated" together? Today, I couldn't get out bed..just laying there listening to the silence of the world followed by flashbacks which have left me numb, I have drink in the house but I didn't even want it just the thought of a drink made me feel sick, and also knowing that if I have a drink I won't stop, I sat they today, counting out the pills, a cocktail of drugs, no packages left in the house just a brown medicine bottle with the label off, I resisted taken them as I lay in bed and had flashback after flashback, seeing he's face laughing at me, I resisted the tablets, I can't afford to drink cause I know that i will get in a state and my consioucious that's keeping me alive will disappear. The reason I'm posting, is because i'm starting to feel the urge for a drink, its nite time here...my mood hasn't lifted and today has been wasted with me in bed (just laying there) I'm now starting to think a drink would lift my mood, would allow me to go out and be with people, without a drink I can't socialise...but its dangerous time and I know the first drink will kill me.
Please how do fight the urges not to drink when u want to lift ur mood, how else can u lift ur mood so u can interact with ppl without a panic, or anxiety attack hitting.
Thank you for reading.
lost xxx (still soul searching)
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