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I'm not sure about AA groups, I would feel a fraud and not sure I'm confortable being around people just yet, I feel people would laugh at me I do want help I'm just not sure if I can go, I get so anxious and nervous which I'm sure most people do, I don't know maybe I just over anaylse everything, look to deep into everything. Sorry. Hospital is out of the question, I have a serious problem with germs and dirt, hospitals are filthy places and u can catch all sorts of germs, a girl in my block went in for a simple routine and contracted MRSA I don't want that. I have to be in a clean place, no dirt or germs, I wash my hands every 5 minutes I really don't like germs or dirt. Sterile is the only way. I bathed in bleach today because I couldn't get clean from my recent stay in hospital, I felt so dirty even after cleaning and scrubbing my skin. I don't know why I'm like this, its only recentely i've become I guess obessed with germs and dirt. I really am a freak. Sorry.
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