[ksos]

I am new to this entire forum and posted on this board, but also on the Newcomers' forum a few times. I am now in the midst of a divorce with my wife of 14 years based on a drug relapse, but also based on her discovering that I've been frequenting porn sites and calling ex-girlfriends via my cell phone, costing up to $400.00 per month. I know that I am an addict but I also have been diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder for a few years.

I am adept at denial, but the involvement with the porn really disgusts me and my marrage has been destroyed over this. I think that the pot issue would have been much easier for my wife to have dealt with, but her finding out about my secret web activity was the straw that broke the camel's back.

Prior to medication which I take without resistance, I was wrought with anger, horrible mood swings, wild spending sprees, and, yes, I always wanted to have sex, irrespective of how I was behaving towards my wife or the time of day or night. I'm wondering if BI-Polar Disorder's symptomology, which does include hypersexuality is often mistaken for sexual addiction? Or am I just fishing for an excuse, which is what many have told me.?

I haven't been on the sites in six months and don't feel a need to go on them--maybe this is a result of my trying to work on myself--I'm not sure. I just wonder about the connection between this and Bi-Polar Disorder...

K