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Hi all

Just needed to share about the fact that i have started to lose weight again and feel vunerable about it. I don't particularly have alot to lose (maybe about 14 - 16 pounds) and i was comfortable with my weight but i think my HP must think its time for the last little bit of security weight to come away.

It took me a while to get used to the fact that when i came into recovery from compulsive overeating i would lose weight ( lost about 70 pounds) and it took alot of love and care from people around me to help me get over my insecurities about it.

I know that i have been praying lately to become all that God would have me become emotionally, spiritually and physically but the physical scares me.

I know that i want this but i am fearful of the reactions i will get, i know that inside i feel really good about myself and am now getting to a point where i enjoy being a woman, wearing nice clothes and sexy undies but all this is for myself and i am fearful of attracting mens attention. (Even my husband at times)

I know that this is something i have to deal with if i am truly to recover from the pain that my abuse caused me and most days i am pain free but not today. I know that this will pass and i have to trust God as he would not give me more than i can handle so i will continue to be guided by him as he has my best interests at heart.

Going to a meeting later so will find someone to share with and get some feedack from but felt like share how i was feeling before i eat my breakfast.

Love to all

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