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to be honest, i really like my sponsor as a person. she is truly wonderful and works a good program. i chose her as my sponsor, however, because she kept asking me if i had a sponsor yet, every time i saw her, and after a couple of weeks, and not really knowing anyone, i just said "will you sponsor me?" i just felt pressured. i have a really difficult time reaching out to others, so i don't really even know anyone at this point too well to say "i'd like you as my sponsor". honestly, i'm not working my program as good as i should. i don't attend meetings like i should (mostly due to time constraints, and i would have to take my daughter, and i'm not really comfortable doing that, either. she's very young, and i don't like to look vulnerable in front of her, because i'm pretty much her rock... if you can believe it!!)
anyway, this is bad, i know. i'm just feeling the need to get to that fourth step, and i want short cuts and easy answers sometimes.
the story of my life.
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