[sudio]

Hi. Please don't quote me on anything because my brain is frying right now.

First, you may call me sue and thank you for these forums.

Approx 2-3 yrs ago, i told the P.A. that i thought i was going through menopause ... started me off on low doses of effexor/xanax ... eventually brought to 225 mg/day/effexor and 4 mg/day of xanax ...

a little over a year ago, c/t effexor and landed in mental ward for 1 day ... doc put me on desipramine ... all tricyclics and other meds made me feel worse than i already felt ...

eventually ended up on .5 mg/day/xanax resinstatement due to horrible w/d, after psych tried to detox me in 8 weeks' time (.5 mg every 7 days) from 3 different drugs at the same time ...

after reinstatement to .5 mg, i began looking for a way out of that horrible nightmare and found another site that encouraged me to switch to diazepam ... couldn't find ANY doctor to support me with that taper, but one was willing to prescribe diazepam along with lithium and seroquel (which, the latter, i rejected and then the doc rejected me ... oh well) ...

i did the cross over to 10 mg/day valium and tapered off of the valium in 2 weeks (i was told that it was too fast, but please, don't elaborate on that with me because i'm at a very critical point in recovery and don't want to turn back or pile more anxiety on myself) ...

as of today at 9 pm, i'm 11 days free and now i'm here ... thank you for any and all future support ...