[Highlander99]

My wife was diagnosed with severe depression, post traumatic distress syndrom, bi-polar and she has had psycotic episodes back in 1999. Since then she has also experienced seizures and over 4 years ago she turn to alcohol and became an alcoholic. I stayed with her through all this and two weeks ago she left me. I have struggled with anxiety and depression, mostly as a result of her issues. I am in a lot of pain right now and I am not sure what is going to happen next as she has filed for divorce. We have been married for 22 years and I feel like I have just been thrown off of a rollercoaster at full speed. The strange part of all of this is that she just completed her 2nd month of AA and has been sober the entire time. I still love my wife and she say's that this is for my own good and I should just move on with my life but I feel like I have nothing left to live for since I thought we were going to grow old together. My children are grown and do not like me as I was the parent and she was always their best friend and could never say no to my two sons. I feel I am paying for issues that she never truely resolved and she says she is not happy so I guess she thinks a divorce is going to cure all her problems but I always looked after her and took care of things. I feel so used and so empty any advice would be greatly appreciated.