Thank you all how have replyed, it helps to chat with others and hear your support. My drinking started years ago when I was in the military, daily!!!!!, then I quit, started then quit, Now I just binge. I am planning to have coffee with a closed mouth friend this evening and discuss my weekend, as I have been sober for quite sometime before my lapse. I really need all the support that I can get to fight this internal battle, before I become my father (who is in a nursing home with Korsakoff's disease. I do have today
