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I have changed my telephone number I don't know if I feel ready to report him to the police, I have once before and the consequences were so much worse, but I do want him out of my life, I'm also scared that if I go to the police about him, then all my past will come out and I'm not physically or mentally strong enough at the moment. If he does come near me again I will be calling the police straight away, that u can be sure off. When I went to the doctors the other month for the dread women thing, she asked me if my boyfriend was doing things to me, I denied it I shouldn't have but I felt so ashamed...I will try to speak to her again..Sorry my heads really all over the place at the moment. I've had a really difficult day, I've been speaking to a 12 year girl who today told me she was being se*ually, physicaly and mentally ab*sed by her parents, 6 hours we were talking and she's asked me not to say anything I promised so that she knew she could trust me, however now I feel obliged to do something..I feel guilty, that she will see it as betrayal she's scared that her parents will hurt her more and harder if they find out she has spoken to me, but I feel guilty if I leave her in that situtation..Unfortuntely, I have just opened a can..I managed to get until 19:30 without but today has drained me, and I needed to calm down.
I'm not mentally strong enough for all this.
I dont have any friends, family that I can speak to I do however have a counsellor who I'm due to see friday, if I can make it that long, I feel the ground opened up this morning and has pulled me right down to the gutters...I'm struggling and I can't get back up.
I'm really sorry u guys don't need this, I'm so sorry.
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