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LostForever · 05-01-2007, 10:44 AM

sorry to start a new thread but I am not able to post on my thread. it keeps asking for my login and rejecting it yet I can log in and access my profile...?
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Thank you to those who replied. I am doing a little better today. I am down to 10mg now. I am breaking it up 5 in the am and 5 in the pm to get me through the night. I don't know know if that is hurting me or helping me. The nights are the worst for me though.

I was able to see a doctor who gave me Ambien. Is that ok to take right now? It will help me sleep hopefully. I wasn't sure about that with the meth but I am on a pretty low doseage.

Maybe my body will start adjusting to less methadone and since I stopped the H that should be out of my system by now. It's been a week since I last used it.

I don't really know much about this stuff. My ex was the expert. He's been using for 10 years. I did for one only.

I've been gone from him for 5 days now. No contact. I won't call him. I can't go back to that life. It just stinks that I have lost everything I worked so hard for. I don't even have a pair of sweats or pj's to put on. Nothing. I guess that gives me an excuse to get new things eventually... sigh...

I'm going to try to detox on my own if I can. The places here do it in 5 days. I have enough meth for 2 weeks. Do you think I can do it? I am doing 2 - 3 days on a dose before going down. The last bit will be difficult I know. I got down to 7.5 once but that was as low as I was able to go before I went right back. Now that I am out of that environment I don't have any access to substances anymore. It was all through him. So I really have no choice.

I can't wait to get through this and get back to normal. I just want to be free of this crap. I hate it and what it is doing to my body and mind.

What it has done to my life. Now I am at rock bottom.

Thanks for all the support and words of encouragement. This is really hard for me and at least once every hour I just want to rip my hair out and scream and give up.

But so far I haven't...one day at a time.

05-01-2007, 10:44 AM	#1 (permalink)
LostForever Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: Connecticut Posts: 100	Back after 8 (contin) sorry to start a new thread but I am not able to post on my thread. it keeps asking for my login and rejecting it yet I can log in and access my profile...? ========================== Thank you to those who replied. I am doing a little better today. I am down to 10mg now. I am breaking it up 5 in the am and 5 in the pm to get me through the night. I don't know know if that is hurting me or helping me. The nights are the worst for me though. I was able to see a doctor who gave me Ambien. Is that ok to take right now? It will help me sleep hopefully. I wasn't sure about that with the meth but I am on a pretty low doseage. Maybe my body will start adjusting to less methadone and since I stopped the H that should be out of my system by now. It's been a week since I last used it. I don't really know much about this stuff. My ex was the expert. He's been using for 10 years. I did for one only. I've been gone from him for 5 days now. No contact. I won't call him. I can't go back to that life. It just stinks that I have lost everything I worked so hard for. I don't even have a pair of sweats or pj's to put on. Nothing. I guess that gives me an excuse to get new things eventually... sigh... I'm going to try to detox on my own if I can. The places here do it in 5 days. I have enough meth for 2 weeks. Do you think I can do it? I am doing 2 - 3 days on a dose before going down. The last bit will be difficult I know. I got down to 7.5 once but that was as low as I was able to go before I went right back. Now that I am out of that environment I don't have any access to substances anymore. It was all through him. So I really have no choice. I can't wait to get through this and get back to normal. I just want to be free of this crap. I hate it and what it is doing to my body and mind. What it has done to my life. Now I am at rock bottom. Thanks for all the support and words of encouragement. This is really hard for me and at least once every hour I just want to rip my hair out and scream and give up. But so far I haven't...one day at a time.