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happy sat all. its a beautiful day. well last nite like clock work i just got home after work. made dinner finished and was about to pop in a movie and kick back. i hear my doorbell ring. i said to myself jesus... this cant be good. and i was right. it was two girls i have partyed with standing there with a gallon jug of jim beam. they were all dolled up and looking very nice. i didnt even let them in the house. they said to me hey jason we thought we would stop by and have a drink with you. i quickly said you guys know im trying to stay away from that sh!t. i cant be around that any more and im sorry but im not going to drink. they seemed shocked those words came outta my mouth. but they gave me a hug and one of them said. i wish i was as strong. i told her i had to be for now on. they didnt try and push me but they know i dont do that any more but they keep coming back. do you know how hard it was to turn down two cute girls with wishkey. my god it was so tuff but i did it. after they left i couldnt help but wonder what i coulda done with them. but thats just the "man" in me. infact i thought about it all nite. but i didnt give in. about an hour went by and i had another knock on my door. i said christ! who is this?? it was another party buddie i have gotten high with many times. he said he was able to scrape up 100 bucks and wanted to party with me and buy a rock. i told him.. gabe, dude you know im clean now. why you coming here with this? he was honest, he told me i couldnt find any coke around town and he knew my connection is there and good. i said man i got rid of there number a long time ago. he said well you know were they live. i said yes but i cant help you out anymore. he kept trying and trying for me to get his dope. i finally got right in his face and told him to get the f out. the point of my little story is there not really your friends if they keep trying to get you to use. this just proves my point. i need to get outta this house a.s.a.p. but im happy to say i passed a couple test last nite and i sober today. looks like im really going to beat this crap this time. im happy for myself today. that may sound cheesy but its the truth. gold star for me lol... thanks for your time...jason