| Powerless
Hi folks,
I have decided to stick around a while after all. There is so much kindness and support here, I don't want to leave.
I went to an AA meeting last night and had a great enlightening that I would like to share. The topic was powerlessness. Being the control freak that I am, the concept was a distant one. There was a lot of talk about being powerless over alcohol. I thought about it for a bit. And I realized, though, I thought I controlled my drinking, I really didn't. It was controlling me. I couldn't stop after one or two and I can't understand anyone who can. Actually, once I started, I could not stop at all. I gain my power over alcohol by realizing I am powerless against it. I just can't take that first drink.
I am beginning to understand my powerlessness in other things too. I can't change people, I can't change the past or the future, or a multitude of other things. So why fret over things? I believe in a HP, I know some here don't and that's OK. But I have to trust in Him and know that He's just going to have to take care of the things that I can't. And for that I am thankful.
The first thing I do in the morning now, is give the day to my HP. Really fast so I don't take any of it back. Then I can relax, enjoy the day and no matter what happens, I do my best and give what I can and let my HP take care of the rest.
I have found great comfort and freedom in this and I can actually enjoy my day. Go figure...
(((Hugs)))
Carol
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