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I have a doctor, she knows all of it, but there doesn't seem to be much they can do besides prescribing me valium, or equivalent, which the won't do because that is addictive.
I'm going to find a counsellor as soon as I start working and so far it looks like I might have something starting in a week or so which will help take my mind off things.
Also things are not going well with the boyf and I really want out as he is making me 10x worse in all areas. He puts me down, he threatens to split up with me - indirectly, he snores like a pig which affects my - already crap - sleep, he has terrible flatulence (!gross!!) and goes out drinking late a few times every week and does coke and booze all weekend.
OK, I know it sounds OBVIOUS that he is wrong for me, he does not support me through anything mainly because he doesn't understand it - or doesn't want to. He can't be bothered that's the way he acts. The problem is I suffer from such low self-esteem, I hate the thought of splitting up and I do love him but I need more now andhe's not ready to change for anyone, he still wants to be a lad, even though he's 32 this year - get a life!!
Anyway, rant rant, thanks for listening.
M x
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