| What's your plan?
I've been thinking alot about and trying to formulate my new "plan" in terms of what I will do when I feel I am getting sucked back into the obsessing, controlling behavior, anxiety of not knowing etc. The reacting that makes me crazy.
Just for now... my plan is this:
When I find myself reacting, obsessing, falling back into bad behaviors I can:
Choose not to engage and physically remove myself from the situation to journal about what I am feeling and try to make sense of it.
I suppose it's difficult when I am pretty much putting all my eggs in one basket in terms of IF he uses, I leave.
Monitoring my expectations is hard. Detaching my emotions from his actions is also difficult.
But I know all of you wise women/men are right... the more I focus on me- the less I focus on him- the more detached from his behavior I will become.
Hoping others can offer what their personal plans are or have been in terms of changing reactions or what to do when you choose not to give into the addicts attempts to engage you.
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Heather
"You do not need to be loved, not at the cost of yourself. The single relationship that is truly central and crucial in a life is the relationship to the self. Of all the people you will know in a lifetime, you are the only one you will never lose."
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