[Biscuits]

Been doing some writing to try and figure out why my head went a little crazy yesterday around the food and realised that i am not dealing with a problem that needs to be dealt with.

MY MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bless her, she tries her best but i am unwilling to keep being her parent. Lately i have been avoiding contact with her because she tries to make me responsible for how her life is going. I am one of six kids she has but for some reason its me she expects to sort her problems out. God knows i have been doing this since i was 10 years old and i have had enough of it. I had real expectations as a child of being reared by parents who would be able to show me stability and emotional love but HP had other idea's and i was raised by a couple of kids playing at being adults. My parents could no better deal with the world than a couple of kids so me being the brainy one of the family was forced into taking on the parental role within the family.

I have two kids of my own and that is more than enough parental responsiblity for me, i don't need my mother bringing her chaos to my door.

I know its something that needs sorting and i need to start putting back in place the boundaries that work in our relationship. My mom fights these tooth and nail and sometimes i get tired of the constant repairing of them. I need to find a solution. I can't keep avoiding her phone calls and text messages.

Well there you go! I've got that out of my system.

I thank God for bringing me clarity around my thoughts and also keeping me focused on the real reasons why i either undereat or overeat.