| Struggling
I am struggling majorly today. It is just everything. I feel like I pigged out yesterday. I know that I really didn't eat much food. However, when you have a eating disorder any amount of food is too much...Then I am having
major cravings for opiates...I know that this will pass and tomorrow may be a better day. However, when I feel so depressed like this is when I want to
the self-harming. Which is usually self-cutting...I haven't done this in several days. Today, the feeling is so strong to do so. I feel like I need to be punished or something because I keep messing up. Plus, I am just so angry about so many things and I do not know any other way to deal with that anger etc. I probably sound nuts. I just feel so very alone and that noone can understand...
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