[Paulos]

Hello all, I'm a regular in the alcoholism forums on this site, but I've quit and bumped that problem of mine down MAJORLY and IMMENSLY along with smoking.

I finally went to a shrink 2 weeks and a half ago... needed to, my doctor told me so and I agreed. I was on Zoloft for a year and I thought it was doing a little for me but it really wasn't, or maybe it was because I'm feeling more paranoid and cannot concentrate more than ever, but I'm still starting on finding a proper medication for me...

I have probably had depression or light depression all my life lightly, but lately it's been more than ever, by the way I'm a 21 year old male, very anti social, paranoid about being alone someday as in dealing with life, talking on the phone, thinking I'll make mistakes, or just being dumb thinking I should be einstein and learn things instantly when I read them. Have any of you had these symptoms? *Forget aches and pains, we all know we have those... and also I am on Xanax, 4 0.50 mg pills a day*

Anti social behaviour...
Fear of using the phone...
Not wanting to talk upfront to people...
Thinking your brain is in a fog...
Always paranoid about SOMETHING wrong with my body/health or something...
Thinking one little thing like a piece of food will ruin my cholestral levels...

and I'm sure I have other crap, just I can't think of it right now, that's the MENTAL STUFF... thanks all...