[Rella927]

Cynay "One thing that I have discovered is often the issues and emotional chaos get worse when they are not drinking.... or maybe it just seems that way to me. "

This is so true! BV so sorry you are going through this....I remember the feeling of feeling ok he has it this time things are better and the chaos has stopped then BAM out of no where the hurtful words (One I remember oh to well "Why don't you go dig up your husband in his grave and crawl in with him and make a baby-he probably died because of you anyway") Now hmmmm then I was in tears-now if he said I have to just step back and say wow he really is not working the program and is really just as ill when he is drinking! That was without the drinking he said this and other things!

I as many in here know where you are coming from BV (((BIG HUGS))) hang in there if you can or run the other way as fast as you can. YOU are the one who has to feel if you can go through this with as everyone has said baby steps or you have to feel enough is enough and your not going to live this way. As Cynay stated trust me and others it only gets worse.....and as InThisForMe stated along with myself it is up to you when it is time to move on...

Take care of you hon!