[JEI2950]

I have come to a disturbing realization today , first let me try to explain what happened when I used , It seemed like everytime I used in the past , when I sobered up , I felt as though I lost something , I don't mean self-respect , dignity, pride ,ect (although I went through that and realize that this happens ,) I mean I lost the ability to spell words correctly on one occassion , then the next ,I lost focus , the next difficulty concentrating , and I am becoming lazy and right now I feel as though I losing my ability to feel emotionally , don't get me wrong I love all of my family , daughters ,sons , wife , ect but I don't feel it ,if you know what I mean , I hope someone can tell me if this feeling of emptiness will pass or have I destroyed the brain cells that process love and compassion . I am not bitter about anything , I don't want to use or drink , but I can shake this feeling of being emotionally deficient. Somebody tell me WTF is wrong with me ? please? JEI