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lanie67 · 04-13-2007, 08:27 PM

[ I can still go into "insane mode" when I get caught up in self-will trying to dominate and control situations that are not mine to control or into warped ways of thinking. When I do this, I get the same old results. Fortunately I then have step 3 where I can turn everything back over to my HP and stop the insanity.

I hope this made sense!

Hugs,
Kellye[/QUOTE]

Thanks Kellye, that really resonated with me, that is exactly where I am at, not with alcohol but with other behaviors. I have recently been throught some very painful stuff, and the sheer pain of it is allowing hp to restore me to sanity. I became friends with some people very different from those whom I would normally be drawn to; honestly I just fell into it. Now I find myself in the pain of having been betrayed and I am having to step back and look at myself in every part of the process and honestly aprise where I went wrong. I just was not paying attention, not listenin to my gut at all like I should have been; it's like I believed I was invincible and nothing could hurt me. Boy did I learn the hard way. This is where I am at in the steps now, having gone through step two and having to turn it all back over to a higher power, also having to make a promise to myself to PAY ATTENTION to what is going on around me and who I let into my life.

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lanie67 Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: south east Posts: 216	[ I can still go into "insane mode" when I get caught up in self-will trying to dominate and control situations that are not mine to control or into warped ways of thinking. When I do this, I get the same old results. Fortunately I then have step 3 where I can turn everything back over to my HP and stop the insanity. I hope this made sense! Hugs, Kellye[/QUOTE] Thanks Kellye, that really resonated with me, that is exactly where I am at, not with alcohol but with other behaviors. I have recently been throught some very painful stuff, and the sheer pain of it is allowing hp to restore me to sanity. I became friends with some people very different from those whom I would normally be drawn to; honestly I just fell into it. Now I find myself in the pain of having been betrayed and I am having to step back and look at myself in every part of the process and honestly aprise where I went wrong. I just was not paying attention, not listenin to my gut at all like I should have been; it's like I believed I was invincible and nothing could hurt me. Boy did I learn the hard way. This is where I am at in the steps now, having gone through step two and having to turn it all back over to a higher power, also having to make a promise to myself to PAY ATTENTION to what is going on around me and who I let into my life.