[Tazman53]

What can I say.... Laurie I was one of those folks who did not loose much materially when I finally threw in the towel, some how I had only managed one DUI and that was almost 20 years before I quit. How I didn't get a lot more I do not know, maybe it was God watching out for me, because I darn sure was not watching out for myself, I did total a truck last year due to falling asleep while drinking and driving.

Where I was at though was at a point where if I had continued to drink one more month my world as I knew it materially would have dissappeared probably in less then a year and all that would have been left for me to do was finish it off by drinking.

Spiritually I was dead and had been for about a year, my wifes dad was in the process of helping her and the kids get thier own place to where the kids would not have to watch me drink myself to death. My kids were all screwed up because of my drinking.

Every one has a different bottom, I was lucky, I stood on the edge of a cliff when I had my moment of clarity, from the top of the cliff I saw rock bottom, I knew that all I had to do was take one more step forward and it was all gone within a year except for the bottle, who knows how long it would have taken for alcohol to kill me?

My bottom was spiritual, I had been dead for well over a year, I kind of did it backwards, some folks spirit does not die until the material is gone, with me my spirit died before the material including my life left me.