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Originally Posted by racegirl2448  Tanya-
Cat and Miki and myself were like the 3 Musteteers on this site and through email and stuff so this whole thing has really bothered me alot...... although Christine's DOC was different than mine we still had a bond and I know for a fact there were a few differnt times Miki and I stopped her from using and for that I was thankful that we were able to help her on those occassions.
I remember there was a day Miki & I both on here and in emails tried and tried to get her mind of using.....but... there was no changingher mind that day...
Miki do you remember that day at all?
Anyways... I was reading through her past posts and I found a post where she said she was talking to 2 of what she felt were "good friends" she made here and how we both told her "please don't do it" or something like that.....anyways I cried while reading that because I believe it was Miki & I she was talking about and it was the day I spoke of above in this post.
I started crying when I read that because it made me happy even if for only
for a short time that she concidered us her "good friends" and just knowing she felt that way about me gave me some peace of mind.....I always thought of her as my friend but I do nothave a habit of asking people "hey...are you my friend? Do you like me?" so seeing her type that and knowing that was how she felt about me & Miki too...made me cry. I could be totally wrong...maybe she was talking about some other people but deep down inside I feel it was us.
Anyways..... Tanya you mentioned your DOC being the same as Christine's (CAT)... please....please let this be a lesson to you. Everytime you feel the urge to snort a line of white please think twice and just say "NO..not today".
If any good can come out of my friend passing please let it be that her passing made someone think twice about using and possibly save someone's life.... that would be such an honor to her, and all that knew her..... especially her kids.
Please... don't ever think to yourself "it won't happen to me"... "I am always careful so it can't happen to me"............
Tanya, I am telling you as a friend...it can happen to you especially with that certain drug.... I have read that everytime you do a line of coke it scars your heart, not sure if that is true or not but I did read that somewhere. I also read that all it takes is 1 time and it can kill you.... a basketball player who never did it before died after trying that drug only once.....this is true and a fact that actually happened. Coke makes your heart race and stuff like that so all it take is once to throw off your heartbeat.
Please do not get madd at me for saying all this... I am not trying to be mean I am just scared for you and anyone else who's DOC is cocaine..... all drugs are bad but that one scares me the most. OK I have said my peace. GodBless and be safe. |
How could I possibly be mad at you for saying that?!
Your right it does make your heart race, I've often sat there and wondered whether I was on the verge of a heart attack. And its true it's often the smallest of lines that kill people because their heart simply cant take it anymore. Everything you said absolutely true, and puts new perspective on my own addiction. Makes me feel like ****, absolute **** for my relapse. I have another chance. She doesn't. Despite the fact that we weren't good friends this really hit me hard....you never want to believe this stuff can kill you. awful reality check.