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Originally Posted by kermit75  Hi all,
I started to post last night, and then got too scared to actually hit the "submit" button. Like, if it was in print it was real, and I have been trying to lie to myself for quite awhile now. Last night, I couldn't lie anymore. I finally hit rock bottom.
About me, I'm 31, married to a great guy, and have always been a pretty hard partier, but generally I kept it to the "normal" nights. Then I took a new job which allowed me considerable freedom, and I started drinking when I got home (3-ish). Then I just started working less. Then I just stopped working, and was either drunk or sleeping - with the aid of Ambien, Lunesta, and any other sleep pill I could get my hands on.
Last night I got, quite franky, trashed. Then I took a few Lunesta, woke up, and started drinking the drink I had made before the Lunesta knocked me out. I became so overwhelmingly sad, so I called my dad, who begged me to look into rehab. I called them last night, and they got me in for an eval today. Tomorrow I check in for a 3-5 day detox, and then go from there.
I am petrified. Scared isn't even an adequate description. What happens in detox? How will I handle it? I can't remember not going to bed without some liquor or meds. HOW WILL I HANDLE IT? I am scared of never being able to have a drink again, never be able to fall back on that crutch.
Anyway, I'm glad I found this place; it looks like a wonderful place for support. And if anyone knows anything about detox, please let me know! I think I'm most scared about that... |
Kermit,
Welcome to SR! Everyone here will be happy to help you. Detox is really just giving your body time to filter out the alcohol. It's best done under the care of a doctor because sometimes, depending on the individual, there might physical discomfort that needs attention. We know you're scared. There are many here who have been through what you're going through. They will all testify that they survived.
Once you're out, come back here. We will give you suggestions as to how to work toward freedom from alcohol. But that's not all, we'll suggest ways that you can turn your life around and be happy, peaceful, joyous, and free. That may sound impossible right now, but don't worry, this is a process, not a quick fix.
We will move forward with you hand in hand. The only thing you should be thinking about right now is getting through detox and coming back with a desire to stop drinking. Not forever, just for today. Your fear will slip away and pretty soon you'll be helping others just like you. You are in our prayers.
Your in sobriety,
ED