| not a good night just need to say it
This is a very bad night for me. I just need to type it out I guess. I am getting further into a hole I can't seem to get out of. Life seems just too hard sometimes. All I can think to do for tonight is go to bed with my headphones on to drown out the ugly voices inside and hope tomorrow is a little better.
I'm sorry I don't come here and carry on conversations right now. I just can't seem to do it. I just have to pop in and out and type or stay away for now and I've tried that and find myself back here cause things are just too bad.
I think meds are not working but i'm having the side effects and they really don't wan to increase it which means diff. meds to try and i feel like a guinea pig and I just suffer cause either i'm doped up, which i wish i could be tonight, or the meds make me feel worse or something. I thought they were helping but they've stopped working.
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