like i wrote you before..you have to choose what kind of help you want..Im 22 too..and i understand what you going through..and its especially hard when theres not many other people are age going to get help or admitting to there addictions or problems cause they feel there young and will deal with it or its just some phase and there experimenting..
But you have to realize even when you get help you will always be and addict..once you decided to go down that road its like signing your life away to the devil..But dont get too discourage ive been clean for a year except 2 relapses..of using heroin for 6 yrs and coke before that and then weed...this is the longest ive got clean since 15yrs old..and its great..once u get passed the hard parts its like walking on a cloud in away..especially how u dont have this pbessesion always in your mind...Im not gonna say u dont think about it at least once a day..but it does get easier..Im just saying you can never give up your recovery and never allow yourself to get too cocky..you have to always keep in mind your disease is just around the corner from u and then you will be alright...keep yourself busy find what u really like doing and stick with it..Whats our problem as addicts is we get bored to easily...so we really must try never to be bored to long(boredom is root of all evil,,)I am sure you will do find once you find your nook..at least your are doing the first step of admitting that u are powerless to this..and that u need help....write me anytime...Like i sed you can also find me on
iduno2003@aol.com...wish u luck..Jackie